And so it is here. Not only is it the end of this twenty and nine days, but it is also the end of the year. My reflection this month has not only been on giving and contributing, but also on the multitude of events and experiences of the past twelve months that lead me to making monthly commitments to myself. I'm intrigued with the way this project grew into somewhat of a 'bettering of self' task. Initially, my thinking was that it would be more of an opportunity to make time to do the things I find a million excuses to not do, or to try something I have never done, or to finally start a creative endeavor that has been sitting on the back burner for years. I tend to get antsy during the summer, so finding someway to inspire and motivate myself seems a natural byproduct of my restlessness. I did not anticipate how I would over-analyze each and every thought in the process, ultimately leading me to some difficult self-reflection. This is how this project morphed into an attempt to shape myself into the person I want to be.
This leaves me both eager and sad. I am looking forward to finding new ways of challenging myself, pushing myself to grow, and keeping my heart and mind open; albeit laced with a tinge of sadness around the realization that maybe I haven't been living as that person. However, rather than dwelling on melancholy, I will take with me into the new year, motivation and inspiration to continue to do so.
So on that Ebenezer-esque note, see you next year.
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